I remember having the luxury of "forgetting" or "escaping" every once in a while, the need or the plight of the orphan. We've been involved in this "line of work" for a while now, and I remember "taking a break" from it. Or... coming home at night, flipping on the TV, visiting friends, or life OUTSIDE of "work."
Now, Life is work... ministry.
There's no escaping.
When you wake, you are preparing yourself for the day of needs.
When you go about your day, you are emotionally/physically/spiritually available for those with needs.
When you are at home, they are there too.
When you eat your dinner, you are wondering if they have food.
When you lay your head down at night, you are praying for safety for those you love... The ones you love who live so vastly different than you.
There's no "only need on that side of town" kind of option. It is everywhere.
Even when you "get away for a couple of hours"... maybe to town, or to a park... they come too... in your heart and mind. There is no escape. Once you know them, love them, feed them, and become like a mother to them... there is no escape.
I'm grateful. While it is one of the heaviest burdens I've ever had to bare, I'm so grateful that I have the opportunity to see Jesus work in their lives, and in mine, each and every day. I'm grateful that I don't have to go far to live out the gospel. That I can choose to see Jesus in a real and new way. And I'm sure He is capable of carrying not only me, and my heavy burdens for the many children I love... but He is carrying them too.
"The Lord is near to all who call on Him..." Ps 145: 14-18
Sweet friend... I can only imagine. May God continue to bring you peace and calm in the midst of chaos and pain. He is doing GREAT things through your ministry there!
ReplyDeleteLove you and praying, T
That is a heavy weight to carry. Trust in His sovereignty and lean totally on Him to carry you on those hard days.
ReplyDeleteWhat a heavy burden to bear.... Thank you so much for sharing. Your obedience and your heart are being used in ways unimaginable, and as I know all mother's need a break I will be praying that your spirit be continually strengthened and that you find peace and a sanctuary in His sovereignty.
ReplyDeleteBless you, Mitzi for the good work you are doing. We are so grateful for your heart for the children.
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