Friday, May 23, 2014
at 2:05 PM
Thursday, May 8, 2014
So often times, life for us… and everyone… gets bogged (is that a real word?) down with things. Some things are emotion/time worthy things… a lot is not. But in this process we forget that God is the greatest adventurer. He’s always inviting His children on a great adventure. “Come. Follow me.” To where? To the places where one can experience Him firsthand! Just like the disciples, He is inviting us into a life filled with adventure. He doesn’t want us to come to the end of our lives only knowing Jesus through someone else’s accounts of Him. He invites us to KNOW Him through our own accounts, too.
Why am I saying this? Well, recently we went on a little adventure. This adventure began with a cool, yet tame, idea. Then, my heart sister, Leslie… took it deeper, because God has blessed her with a sense of life and adventure. (You know the type… she brings life and fun to all around… she reminds us Moms that life is about more than the daily tasks)
Leslie gets me. She’s walked the same dusty roads, held the same heartbroken people, laughed together as we muddle through the unknown, and sat in the same still, quiet, dark nights with candles . We’ve shared the adventures together. Some have been more than one heart can take. And the adventure becomes so overwhelming… some days you forget that God is just good. For no reason. Good.
So, about this adventure… We wanted to surprise our 2 big boys, specifically Paul, with a trip to see his favorite actor, Dule Hill, perform on Broadway. So, we start planning and counting $... Kinda ridiculous. Soon, the idea seemed to be drifting away by the reality of … well. Reality. How could we afford this trip to NYC… with plane tickets, Broadway tickets, AND hotel? (food? Not concerned, I can eat junk with the best of them… imagine chips for dinner before a fancy night on the town!)
But the dream of my kids seeing him… I couldn’t let that memory go. Now, on the other end, Leslie had emailed Dule’s agent and they had started talking. Soon, it was set! We were going to MEET HIM after the show! “WHAT?” (in my best psych Gus voice) Not only that… but He and his agent gave us 2 free tickets because they wanted all 4 of us to come… not just sending the boys with Leslie!
Now the pressure was on! How could we say NO?? So… we said YES! AND THEN… Came the free airline tickets… AND the Free hotel! WHAT? I’m gonna eat dinner afterall!
Seriously… God wants us to say YES! (no I’m not talking about blindly hopping into something that will financially sink yourself) He wants us to say Yes.. get in the boat. I want to bless you. And sometimes, His adventures… are just for our “filling up.” Nothing else. Often times, some of us believe He is only in the adventure that leads to the bedside of the suffering. But that’s not true. In our tenacious desire to bless our children… God turned around and blessed us… And No, it doesn’t always work out that way. And no, God doesn’t want us spending our lives on our own selfish adventures… But sometimes… yes! Yes… He wants us to remember that He’s just good. For no exchange. That He wants to renew our joy, our sense of security in Him, our sense of “I can do this life, and it’s worth doing!” I didn’t find that on the streets of NYC or in Dule Hill’s dressing room (although that was really cool)… but through God’s total surprising me… while I was planning the surprise! Isn’t that cool of Him? It’s just a love note… a… “I’m with you” kind of message. And, to be honest, I needed that.
And the trip was amazing. We met Dule Hill. Hung out with him in his dressing room for about 25 mintues. Chatted about “what’s next” in his life, Psych, and a little about Zambia. Met his brother… gave him a birthday cupcake and a card… You know… the things “friends” do. Ha. He was gracious to my children. He was kind and interested.
And the smiles on their faces were priceless to me. And I think the joy in my heart… was priceless to my Heavenly Father… who showered us with such an incredible adventure.
at 9:36 AM
Thursday, March 20, 2014
at 8:40 PM
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Well, I have to say that while I’m beyond thrilled to be leaving the hospital tomorrow and going home the following day… I sit here in the silence feeling a bit nostalgic.
Yes, this week started super scary and chaotic… but I found myself in a place abnormal from my usual life: quiet… alone… with my biggest decision being “what should I eat for dinner?” I have to admit, it’s been kinda nice. Despite the emotional baggage I’ve been working through with Jesus about this stay… there are so many things I don’t want to forget.
For the first time in a LONG time, I spent 6 days alone with my firstborn. The first 4 days internet and phone was scarce, so we were forced to find things to do. Some of my favorite things have been:
*bringing the paper dot game back to life
*watching zack watch TV, because we only had one set of earphones most of the week.
*eating chocolate muffins with him. J (yeah, that wasn’t on my diet)
*reading together snuggled up in bed
*working together on ipad games to make it through the levels of “jellies” and “water something or another”
*talking quietly about the day as we turned out the lights and just lay in the quietness.
*laughing uncontrollably at ourselves, and how bad we really stink at some of these games.
*reflecting together on how Jesus is indeed with us.
*the big stuffed dog (I’m gonna regret that when we get to the airport)
*washing our clothes in the bathtub with body soap (it can work peeps)
*our great nursing staff: Lucia, Esther, and Candace. Personality galore.
*oh… and of course… the daily selfies…
So… I’m grateful for sickness this week. Grateful for the hidden blessings in something that doesn’t make sense to us sometimes.
Tomorrow… guaranteed I’ll be soaking it in… because on Monday, the noise begins.
at 12:53 PM
Saturday, October 5, 2013
at 2:41 PM
Thursday, October 3, 2013
at 4:41 PM
Sunday, September 1, 2013
at 1:23 PM