Sunday, July 22, 2012

Is this my life?

There are some days I just sit and think "really?  is this my life?"  It's not negative, or positive... but more in a state of awe... ha.  

Really?  Did I just haul a casket, et al in my van?

Really? Did a 14 year old just kill a 4 ft cobra near my house?

Really?  No hot water for a shower this WEEK?

Really? Did a dog just bite my pastor's daughter?

Really?  You think I can dance like THAT?

Really? another dead rat stuck under the bathtub with no escape until it completely decays?

Really? has it been so long since I went shopping that picking out a light fixture finds me totally overwhelmed and incompetent? 

Really? am i hours away from flying my daughter to South Africa for medical care because she has had malaria 6 TIMES IN 10 MONTHS?  

Some days... yes.  It's hard to believe this is the life I live.  I feel like I should be relaxing by a pool somewhere... watching my kids swim and eat popsicles.  I feel like I should be thinking about what movie to see next, or what the "back to school" fashion will be this Fall.  

Regardless of what I THOUGHT I'd be doing... the truth is THIS is my life.  And even in the midst of so many uncertain things... we can have JOY in THIS LIFE.  MY life.  



  1. OH MY GOODNESS! I'm totally humbled by your post.
    Now I must go repent of my selfishness!

    I pray your daughter gets better - COMPLETELY!

  2. We are praying for you and your family!! We are excited to hear another update, but I understand life is busy and time is short :-)
    May God strengthen and encourage you today!!

  3. Just found your blog and I am already your biggest fan--- I just want to hug you! Thanks for making me smile!!! --Ann Fromchinatocarolina.

  4. Sending you much love, and many prayers.