There are some days I just sit and think "really? is this my life?" It's not negative, or positive... but more in a state of awe... ha.
Really? Did I just haul a casket, et al in my van?
Really? Did a 14 year old just kill a 4 ft cobra near my house?
Really? No hot water for a shower this WEEK?
Really? Did a dog just bite my pastor's daughter?
Really? You think I can dance like THAT?
Really? another dead rat stuck under the bathtub with no escape until it completely decays?
Really? has it been so long since I went shopping that picking out a light fixture finds me totally overwhelmed and incompetent?
Really? am i hours away from flying my daughter to South Africa for medical care because she has had malaria 6 TIMES IN 10 MONTHS?
Some days... yes. It's hard to believe this is the life I live. I feel like I should be relaxing by a pool somewhere... watching my kids swim and eat popsicles. I feel like I should be thinking about what movie to see next, or what the "back to school" fashion will be this Fall.
Regardless of what I THOUGHT I'd be doing... the truth is THIS is my life. And even in the midst of so many uncertain things... we can have JOY in THIS LIFE. MY life.