Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Real Sacrifice...

Rare are the days, if ever, have I really felt like we are making a true sacrifice by living in Zambia. 

 We are truly blessed.  
We are blessed by wealth beyond understanding. 
We are blessed by relationships that are so sweet and true.  
We are blessed by the gift of children, and many of them! 
We eat very well, and have some to share.  We have access to basic medical care. 
We are blessed! 

Today, though, I feel the realness of sacrifice.  The past 3 weeks have been shared with my parents and 2 teenage cousins.  It's always a blessing to be with family.  I'm pretty horrible at communicating (as you've noticed with the terribly neglected blog) with many from home.  However, when they are here, it is sweet. It is nice to have someone come and live in "our" world, and have a better understanding of the way things are here in Zambia: both the beautiful and the difficult. 
I've just walked them to the van, where Shane will drive them to Lusaka (6 hours away) to go back to the USA.  I try to keep myself together.  I try not to cry as the big hole left by them is so apparent.  It is difficult to see my kids miss their family.  I try not to think about how life would be if I lived on the piece of land designated for us. I try not to think about how much "life" I've missed, and how much they've missed of mine. I try not to think about how, as much as you try, when you live in 2 completely opposite worlds, it creates a gap... unintentionally of course... in mindset and relationships. 

Watching family drive away through the dust... is sacrifice.  

While I want to lay down and cry for a few hours, the life we know awaits.  
The to do lists continue. 
The noise is there. 
And so is Jesus... and the wonderful life HE has called us to. 


  1. Awww, sweet friend! I can imagine it's hard to see those you love leave!! May God bless you and the family in your ministry efforts, daily making an impact for eternity... what an HONOR! Love and miss you, Tams

  2. May God bless the work you are doing! Pour your heart out to Him. You inspire all of us who read your blog and know the work you are doing. May He give you strength for each day.
    I thought of you and your family as I head out on my first mission trip to a third world country. They say it is life changing. Well, I am about to find out. I pray that my time there can make a difference and glorify Him.
    Keep inspriring, stay positive and love like crazy!

  3. I miss you every day . . . thinking of you and praying for you daily . . . It is a huge sacrifice on both sides, but small in comparison to our Savior's sacrifice on the cross. I miss face to face life with you here on earth, but I know I will have all eternity with you in heaven. And because of your fulfilling your calling, there will be so many, many more in heaven with us . . . for all eternity. "For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that shall be revealed ..." Romans 8:18. Miss you all and love you all so much, Grammie XXXXXXX OOOOOOO