What exactly am I relying on anyway?

re·ly (r-l)

intr.v. re·lied, re·ly·ing, re·lies

1. To be dependent for support, help, or supply: relies on her parents for tuition.

2. To place or have faith or confidence: relied on them to tell him the truth.

Believing in something we can't see... Believing in something even when circumstances suggest otherwise... That is Faith. And I am on a Faith exercise. I keep thinking "I'm good.. I have faith." But I do recall a few posts ago writing about Faith Atrophy... and not wanting to let my faith waste. Well, thanks, God... you are indeed working out my faith. ha.

"Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." Jn. 20:29

What an amazing word from God. We do not HAVE to see to BELIEVE. Not just believing in Jesus himself, but in His perfect dose of provision for us when it looks contrary.

Let me share a couple of quotes from my devotion today:

"How important it is for God to keep us focused on things that are unseen, for we are so easily snared by the things we can see!" Yes... again... in the hospital the other night... I began to walk off the edge when I started focusing on the horizontal verses the vertical.

Ok, I just have to write out the rest of this... because it is so good and so applicable I have to share it.

"If Peter was ever going to walk on water, he had to walk, but if he was going to swim to Jesus, he had to swim. He could not do both. .... God had to bring Abraham to the end of his own strength (feels familiar) and let him see that with his own body he could do nothing. He had to consider his own body "as good as dead" (Heb. 11:12) and then trust God to do all the work. When he looked away from himself and trusted only God, he became 'fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.' (Rm 4:21).

This is what God is teaching us (me), and He has to keep the results that are encouraging away from us until we learn to trust Him without them. Then He loves to make His Word as real to us in actuality as it is in our faith. A.B. Simpson"

The question is this... Is my faith so elementary that I need constant encouragement and reassurance from my Savior? Or... can I indeed trust him without it? I am praying the answer is YES! I will trust even though I do not see the "How." Can we simply believe God and take Him at his word without demanding encouragement/evidence at every step? It just felt so convicting to know that for years I have relied more on His "provision" than I have HIM alone...